I was so stoked when Estonian Music Awards asked me to come and perform at their show this year. I had a supernatural experience with the spirit of my land this summer and since then, everything has changed for me. It's like I grew roots and got a whole new power flowing into me from this ancient and magickal place.
We started prepping for the performance like a month before the date via Skype. They hooked me up with an incredible choreographer, Villiko Kruuse who is one of the most positive and passionate people I have met in this whole country so we had a blast. Villiko had seen a local dance studio called the Free Flow studio perform a routine with a huge white dress and thought it would make a wonderful addition to our number so we reached out and were lucky to find out Free Flow was a bunch of longtime Moon Children, absolutely stoked to jump on board.
I arrived in Tallinn 3 days before the performance to start rehearsing for the big day. I had made the flowy skirt in LA so the costume was all good to go...an incredible local designer Liina Stein gifted me a lace top to rock during the Zero Gravity campaign and I felt like it was so stunning it needed another night of showing off:)
So everything went pretty smooth until I had to climb up like 4 stories to descend onto the stage.
I guess I had forgotten I was afraid of heights. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
(Here I hang, scared shitless)
Oh well, first world problems.
After doing it for 5 times, I got somewhat comfortable with the process and there was a wonderful guy named Andres being an amateur psychologist and helping me through it all..so Thank You Andres:)
Overall it went well, we were happy with how it turned out...it was also nice to meet all the other Estonian musicians backstage and see how cool they all were, besides being incredibly talented.
Oh, I also wanna do a shoutout for Dmitry Knut and Vera Lustina - a pair of young designers who lent me this flesh colored hand beaded mermaid dress to rock on the red carpet. Excited for these guys, their art is stunning<3
A N D extra kudos for all my fellow Estonians who manage to stay positive in this place. You are wonderful!!!!...it's super dark, super cold and people are rude to the point where I haven't seen people this rude anywhere else in the world. I got in a fight with a bus driver cause he was yelling at me since I didn't get off the bus fast enough. There has been a lot of occupations in this country and defeat still lingers In my peoples DNA, no one argues or stands up for themself so the little guy was pretty shocked that I fired back. His jaw kinda dropped.
Well, a big believer in positivity and zen, I am done with playing it nice when people are shitty. I let the lion out to roar these days when the time and place requires standing up for myself or my close ones. Screw unfair. I don't do unfair and I will not stand back and watch other people getting treated badly either.
Check out some other pics I have managed to take in my gallery<3
I cry a lot. Equally because of happiness and sadness. I have at least 5 different personalities. Crowds make me anxious unless I'm on stage.
I hear colors, I see sound.
I believe in fairies.
I change my mind in every five minutes.
If I can't write music for more than a couple of days, I loose it.
I make things.
I almost never feel like I belong. I am very uncomfortable having a human experience.
I like bad movies.
I am extremely ambitious.
I'm a foodie.
I love everything that sparkles.
I grew up in the middle of a forest in Estonia.
I believe that love is the most powerful weapon. Not because I'm naive. But because I already tried fighting with everything else and it didn't work.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
Kerli is my real name.
I love one word song titles.
I believe everything happens for a reason. But that everything that happens around us is a reflection of who we are or what we need to learn.
The inside of my suitcase makes the security guards blush.
I try to live from a place of strength, not victimhood.
The most important thing I own is my laptop. If there was a fire and I had to choose between my laptop and my cat, I'd save my laptop. My music = my life is in there.
Sounds Like: something I don't feel like putting in a box